Truth Tuesday

Holla at your girl, I am doing my 2nd truth Tuesday on an ACTUAL Tuesday.

Truthfully, I am feeling pretty down these past couple of days. It's natural for me and happens from time to time. Depression runs in my family, so I often find myself falling into these moods where I just want to sleep and isolate myself for days. I hate it but when I finally snap out of it I feel a lot better. I guess for me sometimes it can be beneficial because I live so much for the happiness of others that when I am feeling down is when I finally just cry and give myself some of the attention I've been needing...

Last night, I was just at home watching a movie and I all of a sudden just got that feeling in my throat and was choking trying to hold back tears. I didn't even know where it was coming from but I knew I was about to cry. The more I thought about it, the more I realized what was happening. Like I said before, I've been feeling claustrophobic lately and also sort of numb. The best way to describe that without going into too much detail is: lately I have so much going on, so much running through my mind, and so many things I'm unsure of and trying to figure out, that I feel like life is right in my face and not backing down. It's really overwhelming, and because of that feeling it gives me, I try to avoid dealing with those things daily and just numbing myself from feeling any emotion. In the end, we all know that will catch up with you at full speed and that's what I feel like is happening right now :(

So, in short, today I am working, crying, wishing I was sleeping...and trying my best to talk to people I love instead of completely isolating myself...no fun...


Truth for this Tuesday... I am stopped/lost/sad/confused/overwhelmed/down/exhausted/in need of some serious support from my loved ones ♥



xxxooo