On life as I'm livin it

Aah so here I sit on this Sunday evening feeling just as thankful as ever. So I decided what better to do than catch up on a little blogging and share my thankful-ness with all of you! :)

Since my last post 12 years ago....
Halloween has come and gone. We took the kids trick or treating and that's basically all. Halloween is for schmucks ;)

I turned 19! Nothing too exciting about that except for I can now be a bartender...I went to Barbacoa for my birthday and that was super fun! More so the experience than the food but it was nice :)

I cleaned my room and bathroom 1234567890 times... per my mom's request. So no, they never really had time to get dirty again but happy mom=happy life.

Spent time with the boy I love.

I became addicted to Pinterest. Really, like I have withdrawals...

I found my white watch that I thought I lost for all of time and eternity! FINALLY! And guess where it was? Yea... right in my jewelry drawer.. who would've thunk it?

Found out JB is most likely not a daddy... like I ever questioned him anyways.. that girl was trippin! JB meaning Justin Bieber... that could quite easily be confused with my man.. who DEFINITELY is not a daddy!

I also took some family pics for a friends, family-friend... if that makes sense? They are great and really put my creative-ness to good use! I had so much fun! Speaking of, I'm going to start a blog for all of my photography expidentures because I'm OCD and posting all of those pictures on Facebook almost gives me a heart attack, it's like clutter in my room....yea I'm crazy you can say it.

Thanksgiving is 4 days away and I couldn't be more excited!!! I love to be surrounded by my lovely family and also by their lovely food :) I can't wait for my siblings from Utah to come down!!! Ah the anticipation is just killing me!

Anyways, here are some pictures of what I've been up to these days!

                                                                      Halloween

                                                     Halloween @ Polly & Alvin's :)

                                                                        Yea...

Celebrating my birthday with my one and only. I love this boy more than I knew possible.

                                                  Attractive right? Happy birthday to me!

                                                                Ornery at it's finest!

                                                                       Tradition

                                                    Xavier loves Auntie Tay...Sometimes ;)

                                                                         Just me

                                                 Doing what I do, taking some family pics :)

                                                                  Sushi date night!
                                                            

On Truth Monday?

So word on the street is I'm the most terrible blogger. And sadly enough it is SO true! Anyway, I see fellow bloggers doing Truth Tuesday and every week I say "how fun I'm going to do that!" and then I don't because, I'm a terrible blogger... So I'm going to do Truth Monday, right now, for the fact that I know I won't get around to doing it tomorrow.

 My workouts this week are going to be the death of me. I can hardly walk and I feel like somebody completely whooped my you know what (but we all know that would not happen;). But I am feeling super beast for getting back at it and pushing myself to the fullest! Also, who wears jeans to work out?! Honestly.


I am absolutely loving Fall.
And my boyfriend, I absolutely love my super sexy boyfriend;) 5 years of that craziness now.. unreal!


I hate missing people. I hate that emptiness. I hate wanting something so out of reach.


Lately I daydream for what seems to be 24 hours a day.


The littlest things make me so happy. So does laughing about the dumbest things.


My family is my greatest source of comfort.


Lately I just want to travel! All over.

That's all the truths I feel like laying out on the table today. But I feel it necessary to catch you up on my life since my last post. Because we all know alot goes down in that amount of time....

Whit and I went to Pokey for a game, oh and Rexburg (not our town ha). I've learned how to break in a locked door with a card, I have Aaron to thank for that. I've gone shopping 3 too many times, maybe more ;) I've been oh so thoughtful lately. I've spent some quality time with my sisters. I laughed so hard I cried, more than once :) I deleted 100 friends off of my Facebook and feel there are more to come. I've taken beautiful photos. I've hung out with JB. I've eaten good food. I took a nap in the Costco parking lot, thanks Christina. I have rolled my windows down, turned my music up, and let it all out. I've sat back and wondered how crazy it is that I have been blessed with the life I've got. I've had my feelings hurt. I've over-reacted to things. I've been emotional. I've been strong. I've applied lipgloss 2 times in 2 minutes. I've realized there's so much more to life. I thought too hard about things to the point where I only upset myself. I've gotten a tattoo, a sexy one. I've broken the law. I've seen the bigger picture. I've colored. I've tried so many new things. I've been adventurous. I've been lazy. I've had a dance party in my room, by myself. I've been young and wild and I've been old and wise. I've stayed up way too late. I've sat around with old friends. I've eaten dessert first. I've apologized. I've had Skype dates that I loved. Jana yelled at me for eating passed 6:30. I've slept in more than once, only to feel terrible about it. I've spooned my best friend to stay warm at night. I've longed for something more but been thankful for what I have. I have wondered about my future. I have gone for a walks with my mom and had good conversation. I have made bold fashion statements. I've stood in the rain just to feel it fall.

xxxooo

On Everything.. No really..

Wow I have not blogged in a long time, I don't know that I can even update you on everything that has happened since my last one! But I'll give it a try...

Well, since then we've celebrated my mom's birthday, Michael's birthday, Whitnee's birthday, Christina's birthday and I'm sure I'm forgetting another important one but at the moment it's not coming to me. I've gotten dressed up and went to a wedding, got my spray tan on with my girls, worked, worked, went on a Sushi date with the ones I love, spent a day or two just laughing with my best friend over absolutely nothing, driving around completely consumed by the music, talked on the phone all night just repeating that we miss eachother over and over and quoting some of our best times (which is everytime), I've drank 50 more Sonic drinks than I probably should have and only got a happy hour deal like once! I've danced around my room singing Taylor Swift like I'm actually her or something on a daily basis, been with my family as much as I breathe obvi, but that's just the way I like it...summer has basically come to an end and it's time for football and hoodies, I'm usually pretty depressed about summer's end but I'm actually kind of looking forward to fall now that it's about here. My life hasn't been all glitter and sparkles, obviously I've had some bad days, maybe a bad week here or there, I've been grumpy and taken it out on the wrong people, sat and cried and pityed my self for an hour, but I'm working on this new thing where I stop and remind myself how fortunate I am everytime I'm down, where I sit back and try to watch my life flash through my mind and I attempt to shake off whatever is getting me down, obviously it doesn't 100% just completely change your mood, but it definitely puts a ray of sunshine in it, and I like that. I love growing and changing as a person, so refreshing. Other than this random miscellaneous stuff...

I've been overly thoughtful lately, which is nothing new because I'm known to over-analyize every situation, as I have a brain that never stops going. It's like all day long I am constantly putting pieces together, breaking them down, only to put them back together. It's a weird thing I do but it helps me. I've  been spending alot of my time looking forward to the future, what's next, getting myself excited on the things to come, planning out life's details although I know they will take the exact opposite course and still, somehow come out to be exactly what I want. I've spent time being so thankful for the wonderful life I have; my beautiful family, Justina, the boy who has had half of my soul and half of my heart for the past 5 years, I love him so much it sends chills down my spine, he's definitely my forever, and lucky for me, these are also my very best friends. My puppy who is such a pain but knows what mood I'm in and goes with it, I swear he's the best comforter when you're down, I've realized that I have let go of quite a few people, and strangely enough, I'm completely ok with it. I've realized that laughing is seriously one of my favorite things about life and that's a good thing because I spend about 98% of my days doing it. I've realized growing up isn't what you always pictured it would be, it's scary, intimidating, confusing, hard, but worth it. I've realized I am a giver in life. If you are important to me I will give you 100%, (even those who aren't worth it sometimes;), I love to love and help, and serve. I love to be needed. As much as I hate it, I love to sacrifice my time and be on the go 24/7 just to know that I am making someone else's days easier and better. And that's exactly what life is all about, giving. So this all boils down to the fact that I am dying to go on a mission trip, to go somewhere and meet these people with completely different lives, wants, needs. To go there with the mindset that I am going to change their lives, and then watch God work through them, to change mine.

What a way to end the blog right. Ah, but it's on such a good, pure, clean note.
Until next time....

xxoo

On Thieves, Insurance and other things of that sort

Soooo this week has been rather stressful. Friday night, or I guess early Saturday morning, mine and my mom's cars were broken into in our driveway. Although, this did happen to be the ONE night our cars weren't locked which is VERY unusual! The part that upsets me most is that I laid in bed thinking I should run out and check my car because I always do, but I guess I got tired and forgot. There is no worse feeling than to know that you were in your home, your sanctuary, where you feel safest, while someone was a few feet away outside, going through your stuff. Needless to say, anything and everything of any value in my car, was taken :( Luckily my mom doesn't keep much in her car so she made it away with her camera being taken (which is still horrible). My wonderful insurance agent, Jessie, then informed me that my deductible was $250 and my insurance would not go up, which was great because the items taken exceeded this GREATLY. So she gave me the number to call and all of the information needed and I was excited that things would hopefully work out, BUT of course not! The adjuster said that the only items covered under my car insurance would be my amp and sub because they were attached to my car and because all other items were "personal" I would have to claim them under renter's insurance, with another deductible of $500, and our insurance will be raised. UNBELIEVABLE. Insurance is a scam. You pay in every month to protect yourself in these exact situations and they find ways around helping you. I am just sick, not only for my items, but I had items in my car that did not belong to me that were taken as well :( The cops did arrest 3 men in Nampa for burglary of unlocked cars, and I'm sure those were the ones who broke into mine. But they were caught in the act when arrested, and this was a couple days after our incident so I'm sure they have sold or damaged my stuff at this point. People like this disgust me!

Along with that, this week has been very busy. Probably a good thing because it doesn't give me a whole lot of time to dwell over my little situation but I am worn out and ready to have some fun of some sort! I also took my girl Whitnee's senior pictures on Sunday, what fun! They turned out awesome if I do say so myself. I love love love them. I just needed to vent this all out so here it is!

xxoo

On Being Mean

So today I experienced first hand, how mean people can truly be. Not that this is a foreign or new concept for me to see, being an 18 year old, fresh out of the harsh world of high school, but today it made me think and put things into perspective for me.

I have always been the type of person to try to avoid drama as much as possible. I take what people wanna give me and then I cut them out of my life, because I find that easier than fighting the pety battle they are wanting to fight. When someone wants to be forgiven, I forgive. But I don't let people in too close to me for fear of this sort of thing. I know regardless of how someone is treating me, that there is a reason they are who they are, and I always TRY my best to avoid hitting that low point and crossing that line of, how do I put it, classiness? Anyway after experiencing what I did today, I thought to myself how sad it is that people can act this way and be proud of themselves. People don't pat themselves on the back anymore for doing good deeds, it's like the trashier, the better. The more you hurt someone, the better the come back, the better they feel about themselves. I DO NOT want to be known as that kind of person. It just hurts my heart honestly to be surrounded by that sort of attitude, and to be honest, I won't. If you are a person in my life that gets satisfaction out of bringing pain to others, don't plan on being  a part of it for long. Life is far too short and precious to be wasted in such a sad, bitter way. So love your friends and your enemies, treat those who hate you with kindness, if someone doesn't deserve a spot in your life, remove them. Do what it takes to make life worth every second. The end result is so worth it. Spend your time doing good, loving your family and friends, kissing slowly, laughing loudly, hugging tightly, you will feel good, and so will those around you :)

Anyways, enough of that sadness...today was WONDERFUL! :) I slept in, took a nice long shower, relaxed, relaxed a little more, and then did some relaxing. I had dinner with my niece and nephews, my JB, and my mother and then we went to get some froyo, and blasted the music, dancing obnoxiously and laughing. This is when I started to appreciate my day, my family makes me so happy! Those little moments are the best moments. I love, love, love life! What an incredible gift God has given us :)

xxoo

On Edge

Unfortunately today's post is the opposite of my last, rather happy, Facebook post, where I stated I am blessed. Because, today I am stressed! I feel like I am being completely consumed by negativity and the harder I try to be positive, the worse the outcome becomes. It is just one of those really "blah" days and I'm not sure why. Regardless, I hope I get out of this little downer mood because it's really killing my day..

On the plus side, I've been hitting the driving range a lot lately (with various different people such as Zoe, the lovely JustinB aka MR Handsome (who thinks he is the master golfer..;), yada yada yada), and playing tennis with my friend, Whitnee. It's really nice to wind down and do something like that together, it's good bonding time but I definitely feel the after math in the morning ;) Young money all day!

Anyway, there's a little pointless nonsense for you to read.

xxoo