Wow I have not blogged in a long time, I don't know that I can even update you on everything that has happened since my last one! But I'll give it a try...
Well, since then we've celebrated my mom's birthday, Michael's birthday, Whitnee's birthday, Christina's birthday and I'm sure I'm forgetting another important one but at the moment it's not coming to me. I've gotten dressed up and went to a wedding, got my spray tan on with my girls, worked, worked, went on a Sushi date with the ones I love, spent a day or two just laughing with my best friend over absolutely nothing, driving around completely consumed by the music, talked on the phone all night just repeating that we miss eachother over and over and quoting some of our best times (which is everytime), I've drank 50 more Sonic drinks than I probably should have and only got a happy hour deal like once! I've danced around my room singing Taylor Swift like I'm actually her or something on a daily basis, been with my family as much as I breathe obvi, but that's just the way I like it...summer has basically come to an end and it's time for football and hoodies, I'm usually pretty depressed about summer's end but I'm actually kind of looking forward to fall now that it's about here. My life hasn't been all glitter and sparkles, obviously I've had some bad days, maybe a bad week here or there, I've been grumpy and taken it out on the wrong people, sat and cried and pityed my self for an hour, but I'm working on this new thing where I stop and remind myself how fortunate I am everytime I'm down, where I sit back and try to watch my life flash through my mind and I attempt to shake off whatever is getting me down, obviously it doesn't 100% just completely change your mood, but it definitely puts a ray of sunshine in it, and I like that. I love growing and changing as a person, so refreshing. Other than this random miscellaneous stuff...
I've been overly thoughtful lately, which is nothing new because I'm known to over-analyize every situation, as I have a brain that never stops going. It's like all day long I am constantly putting pieces together, breaking them down, only to put them back together. It's a weird thing I do but it helps me. I've been spending alot of my time looking forward to the future, what's next, getting myself excited on the things to come, planning out life's details although I know they will take the exact opposite course and still, somehow come out to be exactly what I want. I've spent time being so thankful for the wonderful life I have; my beautiful family, Justina, the boy who has had half of my soul and half of my heart for the past 5 years, I love him so much it sends chills down my spine, he's definitely my forever, and lucky for me, these are also my very best friends. My puppy who is such a pain but knows what mood I'm in and goes with it, I swear he's the best comforter when you're down, I've realized that I have let go of quite a few people, and strangely enough, I'm completely ok with it. I've realized that laughing is seriously one of my favorite things about life and that's a good thing because I spend about 98% of my days doing it. I've realized growing up isn't what you always pictured it would be, it's scary, intimidating, confusing, hard, but worth it. I've realized I am a giver in life. If you are important to me I will give you 100%, (even those who aren't worth it sometimes;), I love to love and help, and serve. I love to be needed. As much as I hate it, I love to sacrifice my time and be on the go 24/7 just to know that I am making someone else's days easier and better. And that's exactly what life is all about, giving. So this all boils down to the fact that I am dying to go on a mission trip, to go somewhere and meet these people with completely different lives, wants, needs. To go there with the mindset that I am going to change their lives, and then watch God work through them, to change mine.
What a way to end the blog right. Ah, but it's on such a good, pure, clean note.
Until next time....
xxoo
